I've been at school three days and already it's a drag. It's all same old, same old, with only one of my teachers actually changing.
I now have a new geography teacher who seems much better than the previous one already. I wasn't doing too well in geography last year, so hopefully I can change that this year.
I need to make more of an effort to change, it's so easy to slip back into old habits, especially when everything is pretty much the same. The thing is, it takes effort, and I just feel so lazy all the time.
I need to do more viola practice and finish my music composition this week. I also need to decide if I'm going to take my grade 4 in viola this term or not, in any case I really need to do more than one or two nights practice.
I sort of felt like I fell away from God during the last week or so. I felt like I'd done some stuff which couldn't be forgiven and I felt like giving up and giving in. But I managed to get through it going to mass on Sunday really revitalised me and helped me see that God really loves me, and I can always come back into his presence, no matter what I've done and no matter how broken I am. There will be challenges, but we do not walk alone.
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I'm not sure what a viola is, but it sounds like something that would really accompany the Holy Liturgy perfectly! There is a girt at our Parish who plays the violin and it really enhances the liturgical experience.
About your last paragraph, I think we've all been there. You are so much wiser than I was at your age. Like Adam and Eve tried to hide from God our Father after the fall, we too sometimes want to hide when we've done something, that we know disappoints our Loving Father in Heaven. But, as you have pointed out, Christ loves us so much. God forgives and welcomes us back as the father celebrated the return of his (prodigal) son. Reconciliation is never easy, but it humbles us in such an amazing way.
God Bless : )
I'll be praying for you sis! I know how the stresses of school and pressures of students/teachers/work etc can wreck havoc on our spiritual lives. so just stay strong, read your bible, and know God will accomplish all and everything will fall into place!
Blessings~
Nikki
Hi Anna -
There is no sin we can commit that is larger than the forgiveness of God. Any time you doubt that, read and reflect on Psalm 139 - it helped me when I was really down on myself.
I'm glad you came back!
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